I Will be Turning 28 Tomarrow.

I may edit this or go back and put notes but this is a rough sketch of my thoughts.

Tomorrow is my 28th birthday. Among other thresholds, arbitrary or not, I will have been a legal adult for 10 years. Although I am still young I am tempted to do a partial review of what turning 18 was like but my 28th birthday is what matters here. I have been fully grown medically for the better part of a decade and the only thing I am not old enough to do, ironically enough is become President. In my 27th birthday journal I mused about how the number 27 is a multilayered mathematical parody. If you reduce the number 28 as much as possible you get a 1. I am not much of a numbers person but I will leverage that as a personal motivator.

1 seems to be the number of concepts life wants me to perfect at any one time. I have already listed many things that will happen but like many things when trying to sum up the full context of any age milestone when I am forced to list significant things that have happened in the world of news I am drawing a blank. Not because it is too boring but because too much ahs happened for me to put it together in a single theme.

I know lessons can happen at all timescales but this year by far has been the year of 'if I knew then what I know now' at small intervals, almost never larger than a few days. I may have eluded to this in previous journals about anniversaries or birthdays but it's seems as if I have had to sue each new lesson as leverage to advance forward the sum of knowledge I have acquired in all the moments before. It seems as if Deja Vu even has been warped to where wisdom seems to criss cross through time to where if I am honest I knew what I appear to learn in the present a long time ago and what I thought I had learned I realize I had never truly begun to learn yet.

Even as I write this I am being confused in an almost supercritical state of emery, reminiscing and attempting to put my thoughts together.

Any more than in the spatial world I can't exist at multiple points in the timeline, but I feel like I have done one better than that. The biggest gift time seems to have afforded me as of late is the gift of realism. Acquiring the courage to say what I can and can't realistically handle. Although I am in what can greater be considered my prime age wise, among other things I still know I am on the former side of a hill of health, let alone knowledge and growth that I am still climbing with no peak in sight. What I most want to be as I get through this birthday is thankful.